Broken Hearts on Replay

I closed my eyes and saw you there, across a neverending pond. In it I saw my reflection aware and reaching to form a bond. I saw in my eyes intense yearning to be enveloped within your arms; in my heart I knew you had me in the centre of your palm.

I opened my eyes and saw you there, across a pool of faces. Hastily, I turned away before you could catch my mistaken gaze. Talking, laughing, smiling, I buried my feelings deep inside; everything I’d ever felt the moment you were mine.

I hoped by ignoring you that I could hide it all forever. I counted on time to ensure that all would be forgotten. In return I faced the deepest pain of wearing a heavy mask; one that protected me from heartbreak of the past - but made each heartbreak after that stronger than the last.

So I sealed the part that loved you, and forgot your lovable quirks. In the black emptiness that followed grew your flaws that lurked. You became a seething monster, a syringe brimming with venom. Ready to administer your spite in everyone who would listen. One by one you took away the people I loved most; for they found confidence in your words and none in my repose.

Hurt flooded my senses; a tsunami breaking down my walls. A hurt that roared and ravaged boundaries crumbling to the ground. Within me bubbled a rage that shot down your spiteful words. I would not stand for one-sided lies; no longer under your curse. Yet I retorted with words of love, for the seal now had been broken. But I could not forget what you said; you could not be forgiven.

We once failed the test of time, and this was the fatal second.